We had visitors on Wednesday evening, I did an assortment of different hot and cold dishes. These included cold meats, garlic chicken and a huge bowl of mixed roast veg. All in all a successful evening but by the time our guests had left and I had cleared up it was gone midnight, I was up by 5 the following day as I couldn't sleep.
I babysat for DD2 last night so didn't get to bed until gone midnight again and was up and worrying from 5 as I had a very upsetting meeting with DD2's social worker that left me seething.
It seems I'm just not making enough effort, I need to up my game. Waking DGS up every morning, washing his uniform and PE kit, taking his stuff round every morning, taking him into work with me, helping him with his homework, getting/paying for his breakfast and his lunch every day is not good enough.
I need to be doing it for all the children, I need to be doing the washing for the 5 and 8 year old and getting them to school too.
Paying for dance/gym/drum lessons and getting the children to these, having a child to stay every Friday/Saturday and babysitting the 18month old every Saturday from 11 until 3 just isn't enough!
I did ask how I was supposed to do this on top of working, her reply,' Is your career really that important?' Well no, but paying my bloody mortgage is important, maybe even essential!
So hubby and I now have to spend next week thinking of ways in which we do more to help, when we were meant to be spending a relaxing week together as hubby is taking some holiday.