To answer a few questions.
Steve doesn't seem to remember that we were ever happy, he seems to believe his life has been one of constant misery. He says was happy living on the boat but I made him leave and move to the flat. He couldn't manage anything apart from steering. The heavy work, the locks etc were left to me, this was manageable with the smaller boat when only one pair of gates needed opening. But Steve wanted a bigger boat, a wide beam, this meant we couldn't share the locks with another boat. It was a while before I realised he was using the boat as a way of ensuring I didn't talk to people. With a narrow bean you can get two boats in a lock together. With a wide beam this is rarely possible.
When Steve is asked by a Dr or nurse about his drinking habits he lies and claims to only drink occasionally. If I contradict him he gets stroppy and claims I'm lying.
I am now past caring, I try to maintain some quality of life for myself. This usually revolves around dog walking, anything else and Steve tries to stop me doing it. I have plans for if Beano dies before me as I know Steve will use it as an excuse to stop me leaving site. My neighbour Betty takes me out sometimes, Steve has shouted at her but she stands up to him. Other neighbours are reluctant to place themselves in the line of fire, and who can blame them.
4 comments:
I'm glad that you are looking out for yourself and are making plans to take care of yourself. Getting out with Betty and your family are so good for you and I'm glad you still do that.
I’m glad you have Beano for company and have Betty as a friend. Catriona
I don’t know what to write, I have no words of comfort, but you are in my thoughts.I truly hope you find some peace and joyful moments. Sending love. June
Just look after yourself and Beano. Take every happy moment you can. Good on Betty standing up to Steve.
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