Wednesday, 17 December 2025

I'm climbing to walls

I'm so desperate be away from here. Today is a bad day, the isolation is really beginning to get to me. It's been about ten years now since Steve's stroke. When we lived on the boat, if he saw me talking to someone, he would rush over and send me back to the boat. Here, I daren't talk to the neighbours in case Steve sees me as he will start getting stroppy with them.

He goes to the gym every day now but returns home in time to monitor my attendance at the summer house. Today I'm allowed to go as it's quiz day, people would notice and comment if I didn't attend.

On Friday it's the Christmas party it will depend on Steve's mood wether or not I go. I have purchased food to take as my contribution, I will wait and see.

15 comments:

Sue in Suffolk said...

Hang on in there girl!

Sooze said...

All I can say is how much I feel for you and I hope your move happens real soon xx

Jan said...

What would happen if you just went out for the day?

Do hope your new accommodation comes through soon. You must feel your life is in limbo. hang in there

Catriona said...

Hope your move is very soon.Catriona

abbey said...

Would it be possible to stay with your Daughter now - Take your belongings whilst he's out - flis xx

Gill said...

Fingers (and toes) crossed that your move happens soon. What Steve is doing is mental abuse and cruelty. The sooner you are in your own home the better for you and Beano. Xx

Anonymous said...

I know you are moving out soon, but don't have an actual date atm.
I think it really is the time to call time on this bullying, coercive behaviour of Mr Steve.
l might suggest that you either contact a professional body for help through all this, or confront him yourself with people around, don't let him bully you into this submissive way of life. You deserve better for you and little Beano. Sandra x

Anonymous said...

Just go to the party never mind what he says, he does not own you & you are allowed a life. I'm amazed he's going to the gym, does it have a bar perhaps?
I know you don't like asking for help but if you & Beano can stay with your daughter until your house is ready it would be so much better for you. I would take you in if I lived nearby in a heartbeat, I've been a situation where I had to get out and slept on my friends sofa for a few weeks. They were overcrowded already but didn't hesitate to offer me sanctuary which I gladly accepted. I hope you move comes soon.

Meanqueen said...

I got involved with a control freak when I was 47. Should have known better. It was hell. Thankfully I got out of it. It's awful when someone follows you around to spy on you.

Chris West said...

Sending hugs and hope for you to be able to move very very soon x

Nelliegrace said...

Please leave and take Beano to safety, NOW. It reads as if a crisis is imminent. The controller in him is not likely to let you go. He will hurt the dog to hurt you.

Lyssa Medana said...

Sending hugs. Be careful and look after yourself.

Rambler said...

This is my fear as well - that he will take it out on the dog in order to control and hurt you. Dial 999 and get him reported and possibly removed

Ellen D. said...

Stay safe!

June said...

Just read that you are at your daughter’s and in your new home Tuesday! So , so very pleased for you. What a Christmas gift, you so deserve this. Wishing you all the joys of the season and every happiness in the coming year. June xx

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